Wow, that last entry was a mind blower, huh? My hand still hurts a little from that one! Anyway, the feeling hasn't passed so maybe I can articulate it this time.

Old habits. That's the problem. Chocolate and chips. Ice cream and McDonald's. Tight pants and cigarettes. I know it's all a process - this life change - but I feel I'm going backwards right now. I'm sure it's just to remind me where I've been and where I'm headed. Where I want - NEED - to go. How weird. Just writing this and it not turning into how horrible I am and how much my life sucks shows some major progress. Guess it's time to get back up and start again. Eventually it will click. I just know it.

I feel better, thanks.