Sunday, May 24, 2009

Another

I don't know anything about the man I will end up with. I have no idea where he is from or what he looks like but I know who he will be and I know how I will feel when he is around. He will treat me and others with respect and consideration, he will be able to make me laugh so hard I fall off my chair; he will be affectionate and warm but understand that having some time apart is just as important as time together. He will have or want children and dogs; he will love all kinds of music and movies. He will have strong hands and a big heart and I will feel safe and loved when he is around. We will play board games and video games instead of mind games and we will debate issues and ideas instead of argue about the clothes left on the floor. And it won't matter who is right or wrong because I will know that he is right for me.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I was gonna put this on my profile but I'm not but I thought it was interesting

Yes, I admit it. I'm different. I spent most of my life trying to hide that until I realized that different can be a good thing!

Just in little ways. Like I reach out a helping hand, whether or not that person would do the same for me. I pick up trash that I see on the floor, even thought that's "someone else's job". I always have a spare toothbrush on hand in case a guest needs one and I bake cookies for people that I care about. I am friends with every single guy I ever dated - because their side of the story is just as valid as mine. I assume that people are acting with the best intentions until they show me otherwise (and everyone shows their true intentions eventually - good or bad).

I follow my instincts and believe that I can achieve anything that I can imagine... as long as I am willing to work for it. I have a new job that I LOVE which pays 1/3 of what I made in a job I hated (a worthy trade, I say!). I have a new lifestyle that some view as a step backward but it is actually one small part of a major jump forward. I have a life-long "to do" list that I am about half way through (wondering what I already checked off? flying a plane, bungee jumping, travelling to somewhere other than my Newfoundland home, hot-air ballooning, seeing Duran Duran in concert, taking a full year off work to do anything I wanted and absolutely nothing that I didn't feel like doing, horseback riding, ran the Vancouver Sun Run and oh so much more!)... and the list is open ended which makes every day a potential adventure!

I am happy when I am around others and I am happy when I am alone. I am who I am 100% of the time. Don't worry, I don't think that I am anywhere near perfect! I have bad days and can be a b-i-t-c-h like everyone else but I try my best to recognize it and make adjustments as required (like quiting my job when I realized that I wanted to cry every morning because I had to go to work... and the day didn't get much better from there). Who wants to be perfect? I'm totally okay with imperfections... because having them means I still have some living and learning to do.

Yes, I'm different. I am upfront and open about who I am and what I am looking for in my life and in my significant other... because that's how I'm going to get what I am looking for!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Be careful what you wish for...

Did you ever notice how the only time anyone ever says "be careful what you wish for" is when they think something bad might happen? Well, experimenter of theories that I am, about a year ago I decided to turn that theory around - I decided to be careful what I wished for, but in a good way.

I had everything that I ever wanted: I made (almost) a six figure salary, nice car, my own condo decorated with brand new custom furniture. But I still didn't feel satisfied, I just wasn't happy. I realized that I had just coasted my whole life and maybe it was time to put a little effort into my life. I quit my job and set off a series of events that changed my life forever.

I learned that I can be happy - not just 'having a good day' happy but deep down to the soul happy. I learned that I have the ability to do and/or be anything that I want... as long as I want to work at it. And I learned peace.

So now I'm very careful about what I wish for... because I'm going to get it.