Fear and common sense

I'm so scared for tomorrow. I haven't talked about this at all yet, I don't think. It's called avoidance. My dad gets his test results and we will know if he has cancer. The jury is still out but they found spots on his lungs, liver, bowel and prostate so, if he has it, he's probably full of it. I don't want to go into it now. I don't want to think about it so I am going to put the tv on and probably eat something - don't worry, it will be (reasonably) healthy. I know it will be better to know than to not know but I only want to know if it's good news.